Life is a Mercy covers every day..
(I dedicate this thoughts to my beloved daughter who celebrate a birthday today)
# I may not be perfect, but when I look at my children, I know
that I got something in my life perfectly right ..
Many women wants to be a perfect mother in the sight of their
children, and it is not wrong because it becomes ideals every
woman in the world. I've learned in my life, a lot of things
have been done by the mothers for the good and for the future
of the children. They do everything for the sake of the good for
them.
But, do we have done right when we tried to give what is best
for them ?
As a woman, we have emotion, we have an options, a temper,
a very loud voice, we make a lot of mistakes, and sometimes one hell
of a right hook...
We do what we can do when we've got the time. It perhaps we're not
a speed reader, but we're always trying to be a speed understander.
I sometimes say things that get me in trouble, but I say what I think
and I believe what I say. I'm willing to say things that are not popular
to others but ordinary people know are right. It's not easy to do,
because environmental influences contribute to the acceptance of
our children. If they see someone else does not do it, and we ask
our children to do it, they will look at us being an odd mother.
what we say to them. Could have been repeatedly we experienced
a failure, their un-awareness over our effort for the good of
themselves, but as a mother we'll still want to do it even it is refused
for many times, with much love we continue to do it.
" I am not a has-been, but I am a will be !"
I learned to deal with the fact that I am not a perfect person..., but
I am a person that deserves respect and honesty from my children.
Some won't appreciate what we say or do, but as long as we speak
honestly from the heart, we will be fine. This is actually not a perfect
life, but life loves the person (mothers) who dares to live it by being
real.
My children, you're such an inspiration for the ways that I'll never
ever choose to be. So many ways for me to show you how much I
love you and care so much, how the Savior has abandoned you.
I have come to learn that I am not a perfect mother, nor will ever
be, because perfect is too hard. But I am perfectly fine with being
perfectly imperfect, at least I'm not fake and its guaranteed that I'm
worth it.
Maybe I can't give you a fancy house, a luxury car, or give you a gift
of sophisticated and expensive gadgets on your birthday, as others or all
your friends have and get it from their parents. But I have a remarkable
love for you, which I make using both of my hands and feet to pray for
you, every moment and every time, so that you remain in a good
conditions always. God will grant you with a wisdom from Heaven,
cleverness, humility and loving to your neighbor, so you will become
a useful child for the Lord and a fellow human beings.
I also have another valuable things for you, which cannot be valued with
money or other material (wealth), but it's all more than that's all....
I have a pure heart and hands are always open for you, ready to hug you
whenever you need it. I have time for you, anytime you need to talk to
me. I've got my finger ready to wipe every tears in your eyes whenever
it's fell, and replace it with a smile. I will always be there for you my
loving dear children, not only being a mother, but become a friend, a
teacher, a counselor, even was a counterpart to whet a knowledge and
science of your capacity to think and argue positively and sportive.
You're my JEWELS ..
I will do things best I can do for you, no matter how it does, I will do the
best for your future. Although this time you feel different from other friends,
as we don't provide you with such of a dinamic and slang gadget at your
current age, the purpose is to make you not to be disturbed by things that can
affect your concentration of learning, where at your age now you should focus
to learn and study.
I am also concerned about how global freedom offered by many multi-media
can affect your personal, social and spiritual life. And I don't want you to get
carried away flowing too far until I can no longer to reach you..
I might not perfect in your eyes, but deep down in my heart,
in my imperfections as a mother, I want to make you become a
perfect human being, which I hope it would be good and useful for
yourself in the future.
Make a power and excellence for you in the face of conditions and
circumstances how difficult it might be later. But because I really
loved you, I will devote my entire life to do my best that I can do for
you, and you shall be a man to defenseless and be a blessing to your
family, and fellow human beings.
This is what I can do for you as a mother who is not perfect ...
Talk to Jesus Christ as if He knows the reason why He did it all for you
through me...:)
Happy 12th Birthday my dearest daughter - Kanya Geraldine Putri,
you grow sweeter with each passing year, we knew that God truly loved
us a lot when He gifted us with you. You are the most beautiful gift
anyone has ever been gifted with. We love you so much!
On your birthday today, we wish that God blesses you abundantly and fills
your heart with more love, joy and happiness.
You are one of God's brightest creations.
No matter how many birthday come and go, you'll always be my little girl !
..There's no way to be a perfect mother, but a million ways to be a good
one, I wanted to be one of them ..
